promise promises

Maybe I'll actually keep my promise to myself this time around. Maybe I'll follow through with that resolution I've been saving for the New Year.

Or maybe I'll just stay too scared of what you'll think.
If you know. When you know.

How far I'd be willing to go.

How many times I've been so close.

How much I've been wondering.

How much I'd like to admit to you.

How big of a coward I am.

How fucking scared I am this would be the end of something that hasn't started.

How terrified I am this would work. And everything would change.

Maybe.
Maybe I'll keep my resolution.

And let my secret go.