Blood Relatives (Some Call It Family)

We all fell right through this nothingness
After so long
Believing in this nothing
Learned to live by and with this nothingness
And what we've come to depend on
Has all come crashing down
And left exactly what we had to begin with
Only the bright lights burn a little deeper
When your eyes are fully open
And he tells me now's the time to break down
And we finally tell the truth
After all these years
I can hear him sobbing on the other end of the phone
Pretending he has a cold
"Just another sinus infection," he tells me
But I know exactly what he means....
"Rupture the wall around my heart."

Where is Home?

It’s nothing she believes
Funny she still dreams
Every waking moment into being
Amazing how the day just fled
Gathered quickly and disappeared
Took its leave on the next horizon
Nightfall is approaching soon
To brush away the children
And the remnants of foul histories
An inconversant rampart quits its post
Leaves soldiers for the cause exposed
A poignant victory green lingering in the air
There’s little she still dreams
And even less that she believes
On the trip to nowhere home

Burn Away

We could start a fire, love
And leave all this waste behind
Forget what was yesterday
And let the sands of time
From yesteryear be blown away
Into nothingness
And you and I
We'll keep ourselves to the other side
Stowed safely away from the chaos
Where we can watch it all turn to ash
Right before our eyes
And leave all that was worthwhile
To everyone else some time, somewhere
Behind us or far underfoot
We can settle into one another
And replace all that was before
With the perfect blaze I found in your eyes
The one you placed in my heart
For safe keeping
Let's watch the nothing disappear
Let's burn it all away, love

The Obligatory Numbers Game

It’s the same look in your eyes
The same quiver in your voice I’m going on
It’s been there from the start
And I can’t help but feel I’m a predator
But our souls are both empty vessels
And voices offer no objections
Bodies creep like hours
And the ticking clock of our ambition
Counting down the seconds before we tear ourselves apart
Clothing falls in strips and pieces
And lips lock in the words we never want to say
It’s the way we bend for one another
The only way left to communicate
Would you believe me if I said you don’t mean a thing to me?
I know damn well you would; it’s the same excuses every week

As Hell Is Deep

I watch him take my heart in hand
Twist and compress it until finally
He has fashioned a stylus for himself
Now, he etches away fragments of thoughts
Pieces of mysteries which never found their proper context
Which barely made it out of his head
Across my exposed, torn chest
He tattoos me to make me his own
Now I belong to him
And I have no say in the matter
I watch him take that same heart-stylus
And crumble it into dust
All the while chanting
Saying the desert simply isn't large enough without this
All the while chanting
Saying I lacked the constitution to contain the both of us
So, now that my chest is open to the desert he's created
I have an infinite capacity for "us"
He delivers these last lines lines about "us"
As his figure develops into a miniscule pixel on the far horizon
As he becomes the same dust as the now-disintegrated stylus
Free to blow as far from here as the east is from the west
I know now that I'll never see him again

Worlds Apart

I know I'll find you on that opposing shoreline
Somewhere, I know you're there in hiding
And this knowledge makes me; breaks me
Makes me want to tear these mountains asunder
Wake all the gods from their pacific slumber

Take these worlds apart
And then pull these oceans under....

With you....
Somewhere beyond this sea of sandstone
You're swimming in a perfectly pristine pool
Where water rolls like mercury over everything
Covering the beauty; keeping it safe
From everything that falls apart

Because where you are everything falls into place

Everything....
Is what I want from you
It's all I'm asking for
Once I'm through with running
Once I've traversed this wintry desert
And come finally home, I'm knocking on your door

All this time they say I've been running away
But I've known all the while
That through this lonely metropolitan wilderness
I've been sprinting for the other side
Just to touch and see your face

I'll Be the One

You used to be my sun and moon
My prize and star
I don't have those anymore
I've come millions of miles
And braved tempest after raging tempest
All to come out something stronger in the end
To be something better
Something we could both love
I don't have it anymore
And I cannot fathom why
I know, but I do not
I understand, but I lack comprehension
I guess I'm just not constructed this way
Giving up was something I was never very capable of
I guess my father's arrogance
His pride shines through
I'm just like him
I'll never accept defeat
And I'll never quit until every last limb is broken
Until my last breath is taken and expelled
I know I'm going to die fighting
You used to be my sun and moon
I wish that I could have that once more
But I'm giving up on dreaming